full Moon in Scorpio by jill mckenna

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The Full Moon in Scorpio is sextile Pluto, opposite Sun and Merc in Taurus conjunct fixed star Algol, w/ Venus conjunct Uranus in Taurus conjunct dwarf planet Sedna. Whew. Leave Sedna and Algo out for a second, though they are super interesting. Let's just say they add potency here.

This Scorpio Full Moon is happening at 27 degrees of Scorpio. The Sabian symbol of the Full Moon is “The king of the fairies approaching his domain.” This is a moon of returning to some part of ourselves so long-lost, that we had forgotten it ever existed, but encountering it again means a rush of old familiarity and potentially (if we use this energy) gaining a huge, huge portion of our true selves back.

Scorpio is the dark, rich, teeming water we are afraid to enter let alone touch the bottom of. This much light in such a dark place reveals us to ourselves. What is the thing we keep trying to walk around, ignore, move past in our lives & say we are done with that just keeps pulling us back? Here, things we haven't been able to see about ourselves or wanted to look at become clear. Feelings we have ambled around with, ignoring or thinking we will get to later, are like rocks in our shoes... if we just stop and get them out, we feel so much better. This moon is about vulnerability, intimacy, truth, and our personal power and liberation which spoiler alert, exists exclusively within our vulnerability.

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Mercury lends the urge to get our feelings out, whether that's on paper, in an email or letter, journal, non-verbal communication, whatever, but we have a lovely window to use Mercury as a doula for all of the feelings Scorpio contracts and expands, ready to be born. It’s a chance for us to speak our truth to ourselves and for ourselves. It doesn’t have to be perfect, it has to made, outward.

The Moon's sextile to Pluto means we might suddenly be in touch with (or unable to look past) primal feelings and bone-deep knowledge related to transactions with others be it in sex and connection, finances, and resources we share or transact with others, especially psychic connections. Pluto transforms us towards our deeper truth.

With Venus and Uranus meeting in Taurus don't be surprised if there are striking realizations or shakeups around love and money. The sheen and narratives we try to convince ourselves of suddenly feel obvious and gauche. Authenticity wants to hit air; holistic feeling vs. manufactured decisions. This isn't tiny—we haven’t had a Venus-Uranus conjunction in Taurus in 80 years. Things we have been trying to brush past for a while or have felt like a small fly buzzing near us can suddenly bonk us on the head. Feelings or situations that have seemed slowly growing can begin to manifest in earnest. It's a good time to be open and honest about significant gifts the universe has been repeatedly trying to give us, especially if they feel awkward or hard. Venus here (or, our love and the way we love) can have a sudden realization about its identity and truth. We can grow tired of what we think and be internally honest about our desires.

Algol is a very interesting and potent fixed star. The full moon opposite Sun, Algol, and Mercury gives us a gift—a wonderful chance to know our deepest fear and therefore minimize its potency, allowing us to become deeply liberated and free. We can stop beating ourselves up for feeling limited or controlled by monsters-of-our-own-making. We can open up to begin experiencing compassion, and kindness in the areas related to this potent point.

All of this energy lends itself to seeing things that are all at once, known, and suddenly so obvious to us but we couldn't see them clearly... very forest for the trees, very dark side of the moon being revealed. Once we see and learn portions of our truth (or the truth that belongs to others and they taught us or imposed upon us despite our best efforts), we can't go on living the way we were. We must move forward. This is a moon that illuminates aspects of soul-needs and soul-longing. Scorpio always offers us the place where pleasure, pain, and Truth collide, deeply liberating us. Use this moon to say yes to what you feel, explore it, feel into the deep, raw ache, take chances, and liberate yourself.

Trust your body, trust its process. Do not hold back. Cry, speak, scream, show, act, manifest, get it out. Honor what rises. Get present in your hips and pelvis... slow hip circles and rooting, cradle your hips, stretch after a long hot shower or bath, do hot yoga, get into the deep connective areas where we store so much emotion we are afraid to release. Drink so much water. This moon makes the work a bit less biting and all the more beneficial. Less sharp, more easing. Do Starhawk's classic grounding meditation (youtube), pull red, orange, and yellow light up from the center of the earth and heal your own energy, root into yourself. Free yourself, and hold yourself in the real truth we spend so much time trying not to encounter and process.

I love this full moon already. Yesterday I administered EMDR to myself at home (do *not* do this... I have had decades of therapy and 3 years of EMDR, and my best friend and therapist's phone numbers were sitting next to me... if you want to know more about EMDR, DM me). I realize now that this was totally me slotting myself into this new moon, a place of pain, truth, and release I’ve been realizing slowly over years I needed to encounter. There was something so old, so primary that has been such an immense obstruction for me through my life that I instinctively knew I had to dismantle it completely, in an act of profound self-liberation.

Trust your own process, overturn the stones inside yourself, find the bruise and study it. Move into the thing you haven’t really been able to get around. Tenderly dissect your deepest fear. The only way through, is through.

full Moon in Libra, 4/19 by jill mckenna

the lovers, anima mundi tarot, megan wyreweden

the lovers, anima mundi tarot, megan wyreweden

Full Moon in Libra, 4/19 - Full moons are a culmination of feeling. Our emotions build up with the moon's increasing illumination, only to be slowly released again. This year we have 2 full moons in Libra (in tarot, The Lovers), a rare occurrence. One was on March 20th, the other happens Friday. Libra is self & other, individuality & partnership, where we end and another begins. With so much moonlight in Libra, we've been drawn to examine how we create balance (or struggle) when it comes to self and others. How can we keep the scales still and balanced or how do we overwhelm them? Much like Hanged Man in tarot, the balanced position is temporary; everything must come out of balance to be put back into it. Every person has Libra in their chart and wrestles with this.

One place to begin considering this full moon is by thinking back to March 20th. Where were your feelings regarding self and another? Where were you in or out of balance related to partnership? And, how has that personal narrative progressed to now? 

The full moon Friday happens at 29° Libra, the end of the sign, and it makes rough aspects to the planets of transformation and karma, Pluto and Saturn, as well as disruptive Uranus. We might be feeling regret or frustration based on how we've behaved in the past or even the distant relationships that have left us scarred. But this full moon is an opportune time to forgive yourself and others. We don't have to remain in a self-punishing or victimized or emotionally neutered stance, we simply have to learn from the image cast by seeing ourselves reflected in another and work methodically.

With the Sun in Aries and the Moon in Libra. we're asked where and how we can be fully us, and balanced by a peer partner. This doesn't mean casting our bad habits before us as a test and saying "Hmph! Take it or leave it!" (as that profanes the scales) but shining our vitality, will, and purpose, while reflecting back the vitality, will, and purpose of another. How and where do we become better for working to be in harmonious relationships? How does our individuality become more faceted, realized, and versed by providing that same mirror and illumination for someone else, by holding dynamic tension?

Think of the way scales balance with sand or salt and ingredients of alchemy. Think of how just a few grains make the difference; one too many and the scales slide barely off center. Scales are profaned when reactively, heavily weighted to one side or the other. But small actions, small movements, staying present with the individual grains, makes the work about fine-tuning and precision versus force.

stone work by jill mckenna

* Before reading, understand that mining and harvesting rocks and minerals is a dirty, problematic industry with often little oversight. It is important to know where your stones are coming from and what is done to the earth in order to extract them. This article is hyperbolic in parts (people can actually energetically work with stones, and the way they are mined can be terribly hard on the earth) but illuminating. It’s important information. Just like it is important to know that the manufacturing of denim jeans is a huge, ongoing environmental travesty, yet they are useful pants that serve a purpose for many. And, the mining of cobalt for our super-useful cellphones is of course, highly problematic. It’s important to be aware and make the best decisions that we can.

If you are looking for stones, search your local Goodwill first (look at the jewelry, often you can find semi-precious stones in out of fashion settings, just take them home and pop them out). Ask friends, put the call out… often parents or grandparents have a bunch of stones or old jewelry they no longer use. Or, look or post in Craigslist and Buy Nothing groups. Stones come to us when the time is right. Trust that. You don’t have to force it or go spend a bundle at your local gem dealer. Start with the rocks in your garden. Really.

I began working with stones and minerals 6 years ago when I was given a beautiful, antique, peacock green azurite pendant in a rose gold frame on a rose gold chain. Wearing it, I quickly perceived subtle energy which to me felt soothing (I have a lot of fire in my natal chart) and also caused my feelings and thoughts to become more integrated. I felt smoother wearing it, more woven and seamless. Curious, not long after I felt compelled to go to a local rock shop. I just wandered around noticing which ones I felt most drawn to and ended up with a rose quartz, amethyst, and lapis.

Since then, I’ve gained more stones and minerals. Some gifted, many found (literally the stones you encounter can do this work; I have a bowl full of polished beach agates), some purchased. Unless they come from your yard or the beach, it’s wise to energetically cleanse them before use or carrying. This can be done by setting them in a bowl of rice or salt (or a combo of the two) for days or weeks, or set out under the full moon or put into a bowl with Selenite or Ulexite. Be mindful, many stones should not sit in water and water isn’t necessary to cleanse them. Also, be aware some stones are toxic to handle, especially for children, Rock shops do not note this. You have to know which are toxic and how to handle them, or not. Sometimes I see toddlers chewing on their mother’s gemstone necklaces and I can’t help but wince. Some minerals contain mercury or lead. Remember asbestos is a mineral too! Just because it comes from the earth, doesn’t mean it’s safe.

Here are some great starter stones:

These 3 stones are considered primary for beginners

  • Amethyst (color fades in sunlight, fyi)

  • Rose Quartz

  • Citrine

Other great beginner stones

  • Black Tourmaline

  • Clear Quartz

  • Smoky Quartz

  • Selenite (never place in water)

The energy can be subtle for many. (If you have a lot of water in your birth chart, Pisces, Scorpio, Cancer, you might find yourself predisposed to this energy and psychic experiences.) Once you’ve cleaned them, sit with each one separately, meditate or close your eyes and let your mind drift. Pay attention to what your body is feeling and write that down. Start with three stones and see if you even like working with them. Like literary criticism, experimental music, and roller coasters, they aren’t for everyone and that’s just fine!

If you are new to working with them, be aware that stones do funny things. They will disappear, reappear, let you know they belong to someone else (and you have to give them away), crack in two when their work with you is done, start gaining inclusions and fissures despite only sitting on flat surfaces, and generally age along with you.

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Stones really do disappear and reappear; it’s wild. A lot of people have many ideas about how and why this happens. I hold nothing more elaborate than that they seem to move between planes. I have lost stones for years only to have them reappear in exactly the place I knew I left them and already checked dozens of times. Or, sometimes they reappear in totally different places, even different geographic locations.

And, sometimes they crack into pieces. Citrine has done this twice on me, once while I was holding it in an opened palm. In those instances, it’s wise to let those stones go. Their work with you is done. The pieces can be cleansed and gifted to friends or let go into your yard or the earth.

Other times, the stone can feel so potent you can see the effects of them in your life in non-subtle ways. Many, many people have stories about Moldavite, which is a tekite, myself included. For me, the stones pictured here (above) have all done this work.

The one that looks like a rusty sputnik is Aragonite and conducts flow and removes grounding blocks. That one means a ton to me because when my son was 2 he picked it up and handed it to me with a smile. I trust that wisdom and it has served me well.

Candle quartz (looks a bit like a pointy ovary) and Mangano Calcite (creamy white) helped me during the processing and recovery I had to do after nearly 13 months of severe post-partum depression.

Smoky quartz (heart) is the first stone I was ever numinously guided to and it’s what I consider my home stone. It soothes my brain, and does a bunch of energetic heavy lifting and grounding. If I had one stone only, it would be smoky quartz, followed by amethyst.

The purple chunk at the bottom is Super 7 Cacaxonite. I was very strongly guided to this stone, purchased it from a local shop, and then it disappeared 1 week later. I don’t get the feeling this one is coming back, though you never know. It brought an immediate change in my thinking, alignment, and ability to transcend old thoughts and beliefs. It mended abrasive areas of mental habits. In a short week, it rearranged me a whole bunch.

The light green, Chrysoprase, is generally soothing and calming. It’s energy is like water and it has centered me often.

The dark green in the upper left is the most potent for many people. It’s Moldavite. It left me once for a year and then came back. It’s often the equivalent of the Tarot’s Tower Card — it’s energy will transform your life for the better, no matter how difficult the changes are that eventually create the improvement. It’s not recommended to drive with this tekite, it can create dizziness, feelings of drunkeness, confusion, stumbling. It took me 1 year to even be able to keep it in the same room as me. There is a lot, a LOT of fake Moldavite! Be careful where you are getting it from and only use reputable gem dealers.

The time my Moldavite went missing, I walked into my local metaphysical shop and the owner (presumably) said, “You look worried.” I said: “My Moldavite went missing…” There was a long pause between us while we started at each other. Then, simultaneously, we both began nervously, knowingly laughing. It’s not the one you want to see go missing, to be sure.

The energy of stones can be subtle at first. You might feel and perceive nothing, but working with them over time, you begin to tune into your body in a way that allows you to experience subtle shifts— like your edges are being smoothed or your thoughts and feelings become integrated. It’s quiet work that requires developed energetic perception, which requires practice. Some people simply have it with little development, like great coordination or inherently good eyesight. Others have to develop it or use tools to help amplify it. Meditating with stones is a great way to start gleaning their energy and tuning in to small shifts.