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Scorpio Season + Mercury Retrograde by jill mckenna

⁠There's a website that approximates how many times you will see your parents before they die (highly Scorpionic).* And of course, this calculator works for every relationship we have. Each time you see someone, make an X through a day. It's a concept I think a lot about and increasingly with age, knowing how brief remarkable situations can be, and often how fleeting it can be to find ourselves in the same room with a person or group of people with whom we harmonize and align. It makes the value of how we spend our time, and with whom, much more sacred and salient.

A female abalone diver wrestling with an octopus. Colour woodcut by Yoshitoshi, 1870s. Wellcome Collection.

A female abalone diver wrestling with an octopus. Colour woodcut by Yoshitoshi, 1870s. Wellcome Collection.

What declines transforms necessarily, having either not reached its purpose of being utilized, or being drained of vitality and sustenance and unable to proceed. Scorpio is represented by the Death card in Tarot, and rules the 8th house of sex, karma, inheritances, death, taxes, mysticism, and the occult. This is an alchemical house where things transform through exchange -- something decays and nourishes the soil to create something new, or a transaction occurs and something is transformed, becoming a greater entity via an unseen power. It's the darkest house in the zodiac and thus one of the reasons why the veil is thinnest during Scorpio season each year. There is a transaction of dying energy and unseen seeding that will not be perceptible until spring. The 8th also rules deeper, primal emotions such as compassion, empathy, obsessions, and jealousy --- things that sit close to the bone.

The energy of Scorpio is the murky mire of deep, stagnant water newly stirred. It is Pippin dropping the armor down the well in Moria. It's the active state of putrefaction. We've lived most of the year under the building or sustained light, able to see and know our actions and their results, able to take in the full color of our surroundings. But Scorpio brings the dark months and dimming, causing us to have to feel our way and rely on more ethereal tools like instinct, intuition, and magnetism, encountering all of the things that we've not addressed or that we have tried to ignore. The feelings, issues, untended facets of ourselves and our intimacy and emotions are now stirred and clouding up around us. What presents itself now, returning to our desires and hearts (especially with Mercury retrograde) requires revisiting, resolution, revision, and reconsideration. What can also manifest are long-standing, unaired thoughts and issues. Much can arise that has been hidden or looked past, willingly and unwillingly. Scorpio abolishes ignorance, clearing the path for Sagittarius to impart truth.

Venus and Mercury are conjunct now at the end of Scorpio, right as Mercury stations retrograde tomorrow, until Nov. 20. Venus adding extra tender presence to this Mercury Rx can indicate themes of prosperity, affection, and love being up for review this next month and requiring address. Where do our minds, hearts, and urges return to now? What is of bone-deep knowing that we have tried to deny? Which issues around how we care for and harm ourselves intimately and financially need repair? Trust this wisdom and explore it deeply. What wants to be expressed and resurrected from the depths now needs to be privately illuminated and personally integrated.

Mercury also makes a harmonious trine to Chiron, offering the opportunity these next weeks for us to deeply heal in personal love and abundance through honest expression and communication. With Mercury, always be extra careful not to intellectually sterilize feelings. Mercury can make mincemeat of our brain convincing us that any thought is a good one when actually our brain simply wants to keep us "safe," even via complete lie. And as usual with Mercy Rx, sign no contracts, make no large purchases, and triple check details and schedules.

With Mercury retrograde in Scorpio, we have an open, deep window for methodical spiritual work, psychic dialogues, and meditative progress and healing. We can nourish and feed our own intimate and spiritual foundations. Mercury is traversing the underworld and inviting our comprehension and expression along. We can navigate our own depths and unearth matters regarding intimacy, sex, and physical exchange and prosperity with others, that have been ignored, stepped over or denied.

The way through this season and nearly every Scorpio season is to let the energy take you where it will and stay mutable and malleable, open to changes of direction and knowing. Bend with the wind, don't snap. Scorpio will work no matter what and attempts to deny change, realization, and profound revelation only prolong the painful stages of transformation.

full Moon in Scorpio by jill mckenna

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wellcome collection

The Full Moon in Scorpio is sextile Pluto, opposite Sun and Merc in Taurus conjunct fixed star Algol, w/ Venus conjunct Uranus in Taurus conjunct dwarf planet Sedna. Whew. Leave Sedna and Algo out for a second, though they are super interesting. Let's just say they add potency here.

This Scorpio Full Moon is happening at 27 degrees of Scorpio. The Sabian symbol of the Full Moon is “The king of the fairies approaching his domain.” This is a moon of returning to some part of ourselves so long-lost, that we had forgotten it ever existed, but encountering it again means a rush of old familiarity and potentially (if we use this energy) gaining a huge, huge portion of our true selves back.

Scorpio is the dark, rich, teeming water we are afraid to enter let alone touch the bottom of. This much light in such a dark place reveals us to ourselves. What is the thing we keep trying to walk around, ignore, move past in our lives & say we are done with that just keeps pulling us back? Here, things we haven't been able to see about ourselves or wanted to look at become clear. Feelings we have ambled around with, ignoring or thinking we will get to later, are like rocks in our shoes... if we just stop and get them out, we feel so much better. This moon is about vulnerability, intimacy, truth, and our personal power and liberation which spoiler alert, exists exclusively within our vulnerability.

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Mercury lends the urge to get our feelings out, whether that's on paper, in an email or letter, journal, non-verbal communication, whatever, but we have a lovely window to use Mercury as a doula for all of the feelings Scorpio contracts and expands, ready to be born. It’s a chance for us to speak our truth to ourselves and for ourselves. It doesn’t have to be perfect, it has to made, outward.

The Moon's sextile to Pluto means we might suddenly be in touch with (or unable to look past) primal feelings and bone-deep knowledge related to transactions with others be it in sex and connection, finances, and resources we share or transact with others, especially psychic connections. Pluto transforms us towards our deeper truth.

With Venus and Uranus meeting in Taurus don't be surprised if there are striking realizations or shakeups around love and money. The sheen and narratives we try to convince ourselves of suddenly feel obvious and gauche. Authenticity wants to hit air; holistic feeling vs. manufactured decisions. This isn't tiny—we haven’t had a Venus-Uranus conjunction in Taurus in 80 years. Things we have been trying to brush past for a while or have felt like a small fly buzzing near us can suddenly bonk us on the head. Feelings or situations that have seemed slowly growing can begin to manifest in earnest. It's a good time to be open and honest about significant gifts the universe has been repeatedly trying to give us, especially if they feel awkward or hard. Venus here (or, our love and the way we love) can have a sudden realization about its identity and truth. We can grow tired of what we think and be internally honest about our desires.

Algol is a very interesting and potent fixed star. The full moon opposite Sun, Algol, and Mercury gives us a gift—a wonderful chance to know our deepest fear and therefore minimize its potency, allowing us to become deeply liberated and free. We can stop beating ourselves up for feeling limited or controlled by monsters-of-our-own-making. We can open up to begin experiencing compassion, and kindness in the areas related to this potent point.

All of this energy lends itself to seeing things that are all at once, known, and suddenly so obvious to us but we couldn't see them clearly... very forest for the trees, very dark side of the moon being revealed. Once we see and learn portions of our truth (or the truth that belongs to others and they taught us or imposed upon us despite our best efforts), we can't go on living the way we were. We must move forward. This is a moon that illuminates aspects of soul-needs and soul-longing. Scorpio always offers us the place where pleasure, pain, and Truth collide, deeply liberating us. Use this moon to say yes to what you feel, explore it, feel into the deep, raw ache, take chances, and liberate yourself.

Trust your body, trust its process. Do not hold back. Cry, speak, scream, show, act, manifest, get it out. Honor what rises. Get present in your hips and pelvis... slow hip circles and rooting, cradle your hips, stretch after a long hot shower or bath, do hot yoga, get into the deep connective areas where we store so much emotion we are afraid to release. Drink so much water. This moon makes the work a bit less biting and all the more beneficial. Less sharp, more easing. Do Starhawk's classic grounding meditation (youtube), pull red, orange, and yellow light up from the center of the earth and heal your own energy, root into yourself. Free yourself, and hold yourself in the real truth we spend so much time trying not to encounter and process.

I love this full moon already. Yesterday I administered EMDR to myself at home (do *not* do this... I have had decades of therapy and 3 years of EMDR, and my best friend and therapist's phone numbers were sitting next to me... if you want to know more about EMDR, DM me). I realize now that this was totally me slotting myself into this new moon, a place of pain, truth, and release I’ve been realizing slowly over years I needed to encounter. There was something so old, so primary that has been such an immense obstruction for me through my life that I instinctively knew I had to dismantle it completely, in an act of profound self-liberation.

Trust your own process, overturn the stones inside yourself, find the bruise and study it. Move into the thing you haven’t really been able to get around. Tenderly dissect your deepest fear. The only way through, is through.

Venus Near-Conjunct Neptune in its home of Pisces by jill mckenna

Gray, dreary Sunday music, an always fav… Piano Magic - Crown of the Lost ft. Vashti Bunyan. my tears leave a skull on the pillow | my tooth leaves my blood on the sheet

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I dreamed I lived in an old house with my child and a few roommates, who were out for the day. We found a scorpion in the house and I tried to throw a bowl over it to take it outside but I missed and it ran off.

Later I was reclining and it walked up me and stabbed me in the stomach. I thought, better me than my child. Later at the hospital, they had to cut out a large portion of my skin and give me 50 stitches. Having terrific fear about being kept there and losing freedom and autonomy, I waited until the staff left me alone, then I walked out wearing my gown. I went out into an indoor commerce type area where I began to bleed and faint, but I refused to go back to the hospital. Two hospital staff members passed me and lifted me and carried me back.

…ask me about processing through my sometimes painful relationships with strong Scorpios. 🦂